I was driving back home from a relaxing holiday weekend when it started to downpour. Lighting was striking left and right and the rain on the windshield left no room to see the speeding cars around me. This has always been a source of panic for me in the past - control. Not having control of the surroundings and knowing that at any moment a car could lose control.
My heart starting racing almost immediately. I clenched up and squinted my eyes as if this would help the situation. I could feel my panic locking inside my body as I tensed all my muscles leaving no room for it to release. This stressful situation went on for about 45 minutes. I contemplated stopping at a rest stop, but I was 3 hours away still and missed my family.
Then, suddenly and subtly reminded, I realized that I couldn’t change the situation. I was inspired to see what the rain could do for me rather than obsess over how it was hurting me. I imagined (with my eyes open :) that the rain was penetrating into the top of my head. Every pore allowed more and more purifying water enter my tense physical self. Down like a waterfall it feel until it reached my feet all the while creating ease and fluidity in my muscles. My brow unfurrowed and I smiled. It felt wonderful. So wonderful that I started laughing. Yes, it was a bit ridiculous to laugh out loud in the car surrounded by a thunderstorm, but it was amazing.
My experience reminds us all that the most difficult part of self-healing is remembering to do so - remembering that you really do have control of your experience. Healing is becoming whole. In any given moment, ask yourself, “Do I feel whole right now?” If the answer is “No” then remember to use the tools around you to create wholeness for yourself. Have fun!
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